Last week\u2019s newsletter, \u201cMissed Opportunity,\u201d struck a chord with many of you and made me think of where I was 20 years ago, emotionally.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t understand why, when asked what I wanted, I was not able to respond. Invariably, I would first think of how my opinion or decision would affect other people, especially those I loved.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat movie do you want to watch? \u2018Hmmm. The kids would like an animated movie. My husband would probably prefer an action film. I don\u2019t know. What do you want to watch?\u2019\u201d Or, if we\u2019re with friends, I\u2019d go through each friend and knowing that certain people would not like what I preferred, I chose to not say.<\/p>\n
In time, I lost the ability to know what I really wanted.<\/strong><\/p>\n It became so bad, that when I was given the opportunity to have a day to myself, (I was the mother of 6 young children, so a day to myself was practically unheard of), I would spend half the day, moving from one thing to the next, uncertain of what to do and wasting most of the time, for fear of wasting my time. Yes, I know, that\u2019s pretty sad.<\/p>\n Without going into what had gotten me into that state of mind, (maybe for another post), I can tell you what got me out of it.<\/p>\n
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